When your heart is really passionate about manifesting your dream, there comes a point when you close your eyes and jump! That point is now.
October is all about sex, lies, and unconscious tapes that play repeatedly below the level of awareness. You can "see" these shadows and blindspots operating when you find yourself upset, having a big reaction that is way out of proportion to the event that triggered it.
One of the ego's favorite tricks for keeping you in the dark is its interpretation of your desire for sex. Ego weaves a ridiculously complicated stories about "making love." And the bottom line, the lie that it never reveals, is that nothing is ever good enough. Especially you. Like fragile cobwebs, the ego spins complex tales of hatred and greed and revenge. But with one sweep of your hand, with one mistake forgiven, it will all disappear.